Friday, March 28, 2014


Yesterday I had one of those mornings. You know them. The kind where you wake up and from start to finish you are rushing around the house like a mad woman looking for your missing shoe because wasn't it under the table just yesterday?!?!

The shoe wasn't under the table and the bathroom was preoccupied, as it tends to be in a share house. So instead of missing my bus and arriving late to work, I decided to cut a step out of my morning routine. I was going to --dramatic pause-- leave the house makeup-less.

Three years ago, I wouldn't have minded. In fact I used to consistently leave the house without makeup on because I thought I didn't need it. Most weekends in fact, I don't wear it, but for some reason in the last few years, I've decided that it is compulsory to slap on 'my face' for work every morning. I don't know how I feel about that. On one hand, I feel like it's a very 'adult' thing to do. I mean what self respecting business woman do you know doesn't wear a stitch of makeup to work? On the other hand, I feel like that last sentence grosses me out. So anti-feminst.  Yuck.

What's worse, is that I spent the entire morning hiding behind my glasses hoping no one would realize that my face was naked! Thankfully once lunch arrived, I was so preoccupied with food, that I didn't care whether or not I had anything on my face except for maybe another spoonful of soup!

The point is -- this is ridiculous.  Women are beautiful regardless of whether or not they decide to wear makeup at all.  Makeup shouldn't be compoulsory, rather it should be something that one puts on just cause they feel like it, or because they enjoy the art of it or because it's fun. Not because they feel ugly and naked and a loser without in on.

The Marriam Webster definition of makeup is this:


noun \ˈmā-ˌkəp\
: the way in which something is put together or arranged
: the physical, mental, and moral character of a person
: substances (such as lipstick or powder) used to make someone's face look more attractive
...and I think there is something fundamentally wrong with that.
Here's to more nakedfaced days!

Monday, March 24, 2014

On sickness & baseball.

Well howdy! Welcome to day 2 of the sickness extravaganza! You missed day one because well, I was a hot mess. I still am.

Its Monday afternoon, and I'm sitting on the sofa trying to see if I can use any amount of brain power that is left to post out a little bloggy. I've basically been brain dead for the last two days as I've tried to get over this head cold that came out of nowhere. I'm phlegm-y and sinus-y and headache-y and it is not cute. 

But you know me, always trying to think of the positives so here they are: 

One -- SO MUCH NETFLIX AND YOUTUBE. Ohmyglory no wonder I'm brain dead. I've been watching reality TV and sports for the last two days. Hollah at the MLB season opener in Sydney though! Miguel and I went to game one and had an absolute blast, and then I spent all day yesterday in front of the TV watching game 2. It is so refreshing to have baseball on regular TV!

The Dodgers aren't my team, but I obviously supported them while they were here. They played hard for both games which resulted in two wins. duh. It was really awesome to feel the Americana spirit down under, and it was even more awesome to be part of baseball history.  


Little known fact, Sydney Cricket Ground is the oldest venue in the world to host a baseball game. 
It was a pretty historic night, and I was so happy to have experienced it. 

Here's a rousing rendition of "Advance Australia Fair" at the game. If Aussies have one thing, it's spirit. 

AND the second positive thing about being sick?! Getting to actually stay in under the covers while it rains! I mean, don't we all just want to stay home and cuddle when it's raining so hard outside? I got to do that today! 

... it's the little things people. 

and that's it. Fingers crossed for a speedy recovery, and more coherent thoughts. 


Thursday, March 13, 2014

Edamame, Beer & Selfishness

I came home from an overtime shift at work today to an empty house -- a luxury I haven't experienced for a loooooong while. Living in a share house with my sister, her man and my man means someone is pretty much always home.

BUT TONIGHT... oh tonight I came home to an empty house, and it was magical. On came the boiling pot of water for the edamame and off came the pants.

Probably the most notable thing about tonight though, is the fact that I prepared dinner for just myself. I didn't realize how much I am constantly thinking about other people when I cook. I mean it's no fun to continuously cook for a party of one, so I enjoy cooking for others -- but -- it's good to be selfish sometimes. And all I wanted was some edamame and a beer, so that's what I got.

Also American Idol because I haven't indulged in that in forevvaaaa.

That's my number one takeaway for the night... it's good to think of yourself sometimes. It's good to be completely selfish and revel in it.

Don't forget to take a day and do you, just the way you want to.


Wednesday, March 05, 2014

i stopped writing.

just like that 4 months have flown by without me writing down one single word. truth be told, i have had nothing to say. i might still have nothing to say.

but today, i'm trying. no capital letters and no edits. today, i'm just going to write for writing's sake.

today was the first day of the semester at university.  i spent 4 hours on campus today.. a luxury compared to last semester where i didn't go to school at all. while i walked the corridors and looked at the other students faces, i couldn't help but feel like an outsider.  there were so many fresh faced youngins who had just begun their college career, but also so many seasoned pros who walked around like they owned the place. i felt myself relating with both groups of people, but not really belonging into either category.

if i were to examine my own face during the process, it would probably be furrowed brow, eyes  down with the word 'confused' written right across it. i must've paced the W building three times looking for the lecture hall. (turns out 'Lotus Theatre' is located in a makeshift tent looking thing near the X buildings. who knew??)

i'm hoping to get rid of all the anxiety/confusion i have about going to uni this year. i'd like very much to get into the habit of actually being on campus and attending lectures in person instead of listening to them all externally. i'd like to stop being an external student all together. so i'm working on that.

there are not many people in the world who actively seek or ask for their full time position to be down graded into a part time one, but that is what i'm asking for. working full time has been amazing in terms of money and more importantly understanding what it's like to be in the 'adult' world, but i think to finally attain my bachelors degree, i need to step down.

it's a scary thought, but so many people get by on a part time income while going to school. i'm sure i can do it.

the other day i was told that having an inspiration board hung somewhere where one can see it every day, dramatically increases the liklihood of that person achieving the goals on the board. maybe that's what i need -- an inspiration board with a college graduate, an airplane and lots of pictures of travel destinations.   that way i'll not only be motivated to finish my degree -- i'll reward myself with a looooonnngg trip to somewhere beautiful!

the journey may seem long now, but each step forward is a step closer to it's completion. ... or something like that.